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sometimes it’s hard to get out of bed sometimes it’s hard to take out the trash sometimes it’s hard to take guitar in your hands sometimes it’s hard to care sometimes it’s hard not to care (funnily enough

sometimes it’s hard to get out of house

                                       i want to encourage that

guitar came into my life when i was 14 years old

i remember watching FLCL and BECK: Mongolian chop squad at the time. FLCL was the first «anything» of any media that spoke to me on a deep level. the thing that stood out to me the most in FLCL was the music (by the pillows): a crazy moment would hit and growl of the guitar would follow through to my ears. i remember thinking «hmm guitars r cool» after i finished FLCL i picked up BECK — a coming of age story about a 14 year old boy named Tanaka he has: no goal no hobbies no achievements his friends suck so he picks up guitar … so he is literally me

there is a scene in BECK where music legends who have long passed away come to Tanaka in his dream and clean the rubbish left after Tanaka’s concert. among the legends one man stood out to me, later i found out that that was John Lennon from The Beatles. i decided to give them a listen and accidentally cursed myself to 1 year long beatlemania. During the final concert of the show Tanaka plays I’ve got a Feeling by The Beatles, a song that in the context of the show is about the feeling that everything is going to turn out alright, that no matter what comes your way you should face it head on, no hiding.

so

after this long marathon of anime i had a feeling that i must pick up guitar

lyrics:

it gonna rock my shit and rock my mind without a need for any medication it gonna toss me around and throw me high

you gotta stay in moment

it gonna see me through and rock my insides and when im high they say: «don’t take yourself out boy!» and i try by looking in the mirror

just to stay in moment just to stay in moment

stop whining and get lost they say it’s all because

well you never know fo sho but then you’ll never stop whining

(because) (i gave away) (all my life) (just to please some random asshole’s) (way of life listen to myself instead of wanting to kill myself now i will not wrong my life

no more

it gonna rock my shit and rock my mind without a need for any medication it gonna toss me around and throw me high

(but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) oh please don’t let it be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) oh please don’t let it be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) oh please don’t let it be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) oh please don’t let it be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) oh please don’t let it be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) don’t let it be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) i don’t want it to be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) but i don’t want it to be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) but i don’t want it to be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) but i don’t want it to be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) please don’t it be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) please don’t it be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) but i don’t want it to be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same) but i don’t want it to be the same (but tomorrow’s gonna be the same)

(but still tomorrow’s gonna be the same for me) oh please no…

lyrics: eh eh eh eh eh eh eh eh eh eh eh eh eh eh eh eh

every now and then i meet a dozen of people and dozen of people have dozen of needles & every time i turn around they pierce my back squeeze me dry leave me lying in track

excuse me sir

didn’t you forget?

skin me dry turn my bones into mash

scream your heart out make up words on the spot the spot you viscously hate where you gnaw me apart take anything (everything)

how could i be so dumb to think i am the only one?

each subway got a full ashtray & each ally got used condom (f-f-f-far to high) which implies presence of positive emotion (n-n-n-next i’ll make it right) but the dark hue of lungs and a splat of dead s***n (next time i’ll make sure to make it right)

it’s so… (a-a-a-a-again let’s go) wrong… but natural (next i’ll make sure to… ah… make it?)

naturally i’m so excited to see another person get off shit that f***ed his life to begin with

scream your heart out make up words on the spot the spot you viscously hate (JUST FOR 9.99$) where you gnaw me apart (YOU CAN BE A PART) take anything (everything) (OF BIG PICTURE TV HURRY!!! THE SALE IS NOT over…)

how could i be so dumb to think i am the only one (scream your heart out) to follow you it’s all just of big picture TV (make up words) and early morning cartoons (on the spot) with Reese’s puffs in the spoon i got pulled through leaking part of screen but… (the spot you viscously hate) well you know… you’re one who told me so so i sit on the other side of the screen (where you gnaw me apart) waiting… (take anything (everything))

how could i be so dumb to think i’d be the only one (scream your heart out) to follow you it’s all just of big picture TV (make up words) and early morning cartoons (on the spot) with Reese’s puffs in the spoon if everybody is nothing but a joke (the spot) than it’s not a comedy (you so viscously hate) so you gnaw me apart take everything (anything)

i look up to these artists the most: car seat headrest vylet pony the strokes the pillows sweet trip radiohead bjork

i’m making an album about a rock named knot who lives in 10 m² room with no windows and soundproofing he hears everything that is happening outside but has no visual insight to his surrounding

one day something happens

most of my songs are lengthy (5min-6min)